Been a while y'all...

Sorry I haven't blogged in a few months! Last few months have been crazy... well not that crazy but I just haven't had the time nor did I know what to write. I am such a perfectionist and I want my blog post to be perfect. But nothing can be perfect if you don't start and try. So that is my plan now. Just to try as best as I can to write at least once a day. Maybe at least once a week first then build myself up to once a day. I look at other mom blogs and they are so put together nice with nice banners and pictures and they write them like articles. I'm thinking "maybe they are all journalist majors" cause they are written so well. And I don't write to well, yet, I guess.

Anyway life has been really stressful. We have been struggling financially and just getting by. I have been trying to find a job but no one has called me back yet. I'm thinking maybe it is my resume or its something with me. I just want to work so I can bring in some income to my family and I just can't get a break.

Plus we are beyond frustrated with our baby's sleep schedule. She is currently still sleeping in bed with us because she wants no parts of her crib. She also nurses herself to sleep and wakes up every 4 hours or so to sleep eat (eating while sleeping, not opening her eyes just her mouth so she can soothe herself back to sleep). Its very frustrating. We tried the sleep sense, a sleep training program I heard about from some YouTubers. We tried it and it was working but its hard to get a system going because you literally can't go anywhere til the schedule is solid. And I just can't do that. It's hard for me to tell my grandparents "hey I can't visit today with the baby because she has to get this sleeping thing down". They don't understand or care. So I would have the sleep training down and then she visit great grandparents house and everything would be set back again and we have to start all over again. So we took a month off. I was like "you know what she is just the type of baby that only wants to co-sleep and I just have to accept that". But I can't and I know my fiance can't. We are tired and its frustrating and tiring trying to put her to sleep in the bed and nurse all the time. Yes I know she is only a baby and this is a short period of time but at a point it just becomes ridiculous. So we are going to try the sleep sense program again tonight.

Other than that, that is all that is going on. I really want to reach an audience and get some views. Any advice on what I could do to reach more moms and other people, let me know in the comments. I also want to start YouTube too but I'm shy and I get nervous and I don't want people to be mean to me on there because I'm so awkward and strange sometimes. Anyway that is it guys. Thanks for reading.